Spike

一个学期又这么过去了...除了跑跑帐号被盗了,重修的高数又挂了,好象有考了个CET6,其他没什么特别的了...

回头想想好象又这么把时间荒废了...没有认真的读过书,没有认真的上过课,感觉都没认真的在活.....

大概也就现在能够不把时间当时间...总感觉时间是有那么点不够用,但到底要用在什么地方呢...

一直有听说付出了就会有"回报"...有时候的确付出了,确实努力了,但"回报"呢...难道这个家伙就一直迷路的吗...

如果什么都能只为自己就好了...虽然会被人冠上"自私"之名,但只为自己想,至少比一直为别人想轻松点吧...但愿吧.

如果没有愧疚感就能被称做生物的话,人的确是已经站到进化顶点的最高等的生物了...

"读书是为了你自己",一句老话,但如果只有你自己一个的话,第一选择是读书的会有几个...理论上父母的羁绊比什么

都重要...所以为了自己什么的都是空话....

可以不做的不做,能够做的不做,被要求做的不做......做多错多.......故不做不错......

每个人都是赌徒.....他们拿自己的时间在赌着.....时间就是筹码.....还剩多少筹码...还输的起吗...只能想办法赢下去了!

开学也已经有3个星期左右的时间了, 感觉和以前的大学生活的确有了点些许的不同.


首先是饮食方面.民以食为天~现在终于深刻认识到这句话的含义了...这次过去,又见证了一次巨大的变革

盖浇饭的提价~~~!!!!!!原本并不怎么宽裕的手头,现在仅仅为了果腹...就不得不将大把大把钱付给JS们...

番茄抄蛋,原本被喻为最佳性价比的饭,,,经历了从4块到大一下学期的5块....再到现在的6块~!!

现在已经沦落到无人问津的地步了...- -原本花个3块钱就能填饱肚子的锅贴,现在竟然彪涨到了0.5元/个

........在一声声"没天理啊~!!没人性啊~!!"的呼声中,老板一再强调.....

"同学啊~~我们已经卖的很便宜了,基本不赚你们什么钱了..."我..#^@*()&_+|?>


吃饭问题说了,现在轮到另一个大头了~~"住"

现在搬到了新的寝室了,起初感觉有点不习惯,但现在已经很适应了~现在住的地方可以说是3室一厅

浴室,厕所,洗手间都是共用的~寝室里还比以前多了个阳台,宿舍楼离学校又比以前少了7,8分钟的路程

总的来说,这个地方作为哦今后一年的定居点还不错~

室友的话大多数是老寝的成员,就A室是其他班的,不怎么的熟,,,估计也熟不起来...

原来人家一直说我们原来的寝室很闹,我其实一直挺不以为然的,不过一旦换了角度感受...

B室的2个就我们以前寝的.另两个也是挺能闹的...每天不闹到2,3点是不睡的...

时而大叫"旋风冲锋龙卷风~!",,,时而4个一起唱...."葫芦娃~~~葫芦哇~~!!!!!!"...

虽然我是一旦睡着就不到早上不起来的那种,就怎么吵也吵不醒,可是其他人就没我那么好运了

每天都饱受他们的摧残.....当然有压迫就有反抗,每天早上就是我们吹起反击号角的时刻~

每天早晨,将他们一个个的从甜美的梦中拽回残酷的现实.....就是我们的工作,也是报复的最佳时刻~`


最后讲到.............跑跑~!

经过一个暑假的沉寂,本觉得该放弃的,曾经为之奋斗的---跑跑...在开学的第2个星期,心中的火再度被点燃了~

说来原因有点可笑.....我的帐号竟然不知道被哪个!#$U(%)_^$@盗走了....

虽然不是最快的..但经过不断的失败与不断的练习,我的水平早以了有了质的提高..

伴随着一个又一个瓶颈的突破,一次又一次的失败...

我遇到了前所未有的大瓶颈...我深知在这里已经停留太久,太久了....但似乎我再怎么刻苦的练习,情况依旧...

盗号者彻底改变了这一切...不仅将我辛苦成果盗走,还将我的美好的回忆一并带走了.....

MD~我不甘心~.......从头开始练了一个号,以前的号叫"PantherX"..意为神秘的黑豹.....

新号的名字叫"TupacX"为了纪念一位伟大的Rapper~~2pac......


重新开始了~

CET4竟然过了...

原本放假前买的几本相关的书...都白买了...

还好由于人懒看都没看,还能拿去卖钱...- -同寝的都没考...(也有考了没过的=.=)

也许也是时候看6了...还没几天假期了...

Holy shit~~~~~~

gl................................................................

Like Toy Soldiers

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down...

[Chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

[Verse 1]
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever does pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
That Ja shit I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' Suge
And that was just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cuz

[Chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left.
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit torn apart. We never win.
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers.

[Verse 2]
There used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'
But now it's elevated cuz once you put someone's kids in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?
It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his ressurection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cuz one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'
Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.
And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line
That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us
We'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is
To have Runyan Avenue, soldiers up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is
But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered
It ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the verdict
I'll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'
I'm just willin' to be the bigger man
If ya'll can quit poppin' off at the jaws, well then I can
Cuz frankly I'm sick of talkin'
I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience cuz

[Chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left.
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit torn apart. We never win.
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers.

End

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted…One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
Is he? No
He won't have it , he knows his whole back city's ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is borin, but superstardom's close to post mortar
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
His bosses don't want him no mo, he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it's old potna, but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this mothafuckin roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin in the beginnin, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my 9 to 5
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddam food stamps don't buy diapers
And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed, plus
See dishonor caught up bein a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama's screamin on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another jam or not
Has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot fore I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only mothafuckin option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trail has got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's lot
So here I go is my shot.
Feet fail me not cuz maybe the only opportunity that I got

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

End

一个学期还有最后一星期又就要结束了.....

SIGH....一个学期又这样快完了,想想过去一年的所经历的...

基本还是和第一个学期没什么两样,不过就是课多了点,逃课多了点,东西难了...不止一点点...- -!!!!

所幸的是,这个学期没有象上个学期有那么多的通宵了...

(至少两个礼拜前我还是这么的想的...上星期....我只睡了一天寝室....其余都是在报告厅睡的....)

大物....传说挂课率超40%的课丨丨....我这一整个学期就只上了两个星期的课....

four in all....开学的第一个礼拜和最后一个礼拜- -

所以....我顺理成章的成为了那"幸运"的40%分之一了....

听谁说过"理论上大学的考试结果只有两种...'过'与'不过'....(想拿奖学金的除外...)"

其实还是挺有道理的...(颓废的我是这么认为的....)

如果每个人和以前为了高分而读书的状态一样的话,估计奖学金的基点要高的可怕了,或许吧...

其实在过去一学年中....我很多的第一次都给了"它"...

第一次住宿...第一次上学迟到...第一次通宵...第一次喝杜康...第一次补考...第一次....

本来一直以为过去的一年似乎一无所得...是这样吗....?!

NO!!!

我现在拥有了一帮难以割舍,犹如亲人一般的挚友(有时也是损友...=.=)

在我最困难的时候,是他们和我共渡的...即使我不说,他们也能知道我所想,就象我能知道他们的一样...

大家平时都"老阿哥,老阿哥..."的叫我,其实我是寝室最矮的(17.5dm...最高的高我2dm...)我何德何能啊...

我想大家之所以那么叫我,应该就是对我信任的体现...(现在搞的全班男生都这会么叫我了.....=.=!!!!!)

最后想对我的5个室友唠叨一下...(虽然他们看不见...更不会让他们看见...)

magic6:真的很巧,我们生日只差一个星期...单总感觉似乎是你比我沐浴见到太阳- -!

              如果你能努力点的话,一等奖学金"照排头"额(应该哦...)也不会和我一起补考了...

6风:       评价你就一个字"帅"....没什么多说的...我们不是和你一起过以后生活的人,处理好那方面的  

              问题,才是你应该做的...

阿惠:     你不知道,其实你最大的问题就是有点太自我了...换个词就是有点zs...其实除去这点,你还是

               很好相处的一个人

马也:      这次考试全过的就是你了...不知道该说你作弊工夫一流呢,还是说你运气特别好.不管怎么说

               全过最好...

小刚:      你个小子就TMD会装酷...你累伐- -!还有就是你魔兽抄的是不错...不过要低调点...谦虚比什么

               都重要...

me:        下个学年应该不能再混下去了...已经混掉了很多东西了....不能再那么有一点自闭了....努力一

                点...一直想对zj说......但现在恐怕已经没机会了...将来...或许也没可能了...


好好的混下去...

混...

考好了今天...

估计要浪费40块钱了...@_@!

还有6次机会...

总能过的...

应该...